Just got home from see my cute little great nephew! omg is he so cute and so itty butty!
Aint he cute?
My mother wanted to hold him, my niece who is still in pain from the c-section didnt want to move, understandable, but that ment i had to hand him to my mother which ment i had to pick him up!
I am so not at alll what so ever ready to be a mom, im not even sure i want kids! so of course picking up an itty bitt little baby scared the crap outta me and i as so careful, probably tooooo careful but what else are you supposed to do?
He is only probably 5lb, same weight as my dog, but so much more fragile!
Yes i did hold him for a while, its was kinda wonderful but terrifying! and the whole time im holding him my mother is stairing at me smileing - PAUSE! i told her dont look at me like that this is not happening any time soon. granted im only 2 years younger then my niece im to young to be a mom. and i so unprepared to even begin motherhood. im ok with being the great aunt - good enough for now.
finaly told my niece what my surprise gift was and told her it isnt done, cause well i ran out of slips to put the pages in......and i hope she loves it as much as everyone else has, and i hope my little nephew will too cause its for him as well.
I admire those who can take to motherhood so quickly and well at young ages, i dont think i could ever do that. there is still so much i want to do and see and im not ready to settle down and be responsable for someone elses life!
on a not so possitive not, im a little aggravated, i have tv shows i want to catch up on BUT the damn websight is down........so i have to wait yet again, like i have been for a while and its hell cause i wanna know what happens!
SO ADDICTING!
on a little side note im starving so this is the end of this post! more to come ;)
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