Bonnie got some friends

So, i have shown you bonnie and have been talking to the company that sends out it and the orchids you can buy, so i can keep get alive. So along the way, Bonnie has not gotten some friends (who dont have any names yet).
I got an orchid, a lavender plant, a sage plant and a mint plant.
Help me name them?

I got called a F@#$ing S*&^ at work....

So i dont talk a lot about my job, but the other day (Sunday the 28th) i was working and handing out free food as my job requires. This young teen aged kid cam to my cart several times.
Now we can not tell anyone no you cant have a sample (we can say, your under 13, an adult has to give you the sample, you cant take it yourself) and people can have as many as they want.
So i didnt say anything to this kid after the first couple of times, he knew what the food was and the drink was and liked it. So i was standing there talking with this guy that was doing a hair styling tool demo thing from another company and i gave him half a burger (i was making frozen burger) because my shift was slowly coming to an end and it was getting very slow in the store so i had to get rid of the food that would go bad because we wernt doing this demo again.
So we are talking and this same kid comes up, takes another plate and under his breath called me (or possibly the guy) a Fucking Slut.....it was off hand and out of no where.
This guy and I kinda look at each other like, wait what? did we both just really hear that.
After a few moment i told the guy what i thought i herd the kid say, and he thought the same thing. Not a few seconds later and little terd comes back and takes another plate and walks away.
I had no idea what to think or do, so i just kept doing my job and the kid never came back. After i was off and waiting for JD to come and pick me up (since his truck is broke down, so i cant use it anymore) i went and found the guy and was like, im pretty sure thats what the kid said but i have no idea why.
Thats how my day went, but memorial day, JD and i went to a couple dealerships just to look arround and ended up driving a couple Hondas, well i drove them. One was a stick and he cant drive a stick but i can! It was fun and i got sunburnt because it was hot and i took off the hoodie.
Guess thats all....


--me

ps bonnie is getting what i think is mold on her soil! i emailed the company she comes from for help, hope it turns out well because i really want to get an orchid.

Meet Bonnie

I got a plant, her name is Bonnie.
She is Just Add Ice Bonsai and honestly its like i have Baby Groot with hair and i love it.

Meet my pets

So i feel like posting this, enjoy!

These photos are of my rabbit Cotton - he is a mix between a Holland Lop and a Dwarf Rabbit.
He is a little over a year old, i have had him since Easter of  2016.
He is a nut and sometimes a jerk but i still love him. I got him a big play pen (above) so he can run around whenever he wants. I also made him a blanket that he loves to hide under.
He has lots of toys, plastic cat balls and special made chewing toys that looks like baby blocks and 2 snoopy stuffed animals (1 from Easter and 1 from Halloween)

This is my dog Stimpy (yes from the show and he has a brother named Ren).
He is a purebred Chihuahua - blond and he is 9 years old. I have had him since he was a little over 1 years old. He is a big baby but i love him. He is spoiled rotten as these photos show, but he is well trained and behaved.

Besides these two as my pets, well cotton is my pet, and stimpy is my service dog.
My mom also has a service dog but he is not mine so im not going to post him on here.
So those are my animals, i am most likly going to get a fish soonish - im working on it, doing my research and making sure that when i do get one it will life like its supposed to and not die because i wasnt educated on how the animal should be.

So since i have shown my animals, i guess ill tell you the food and goodies i give them.

Starting with cotton - i give him alfalfa hay cubes (its packed hay), loose alfalfa hay, and adult bunny pellets. He has an array of treats - i have found 2 he doesnt like, 1 i could feed to the dogs, the other i cant, so idk what im gonna do with it.
He likes Healthy bites, Carrot Crunchies (im out of these right now), Veggie Puffers, Treat sticks (which is like seads and oats and stuff stuck together like a snack bar), Animal lovers garden patch and his favorite is extreme tropical treasures (little fruit things). I feed him fresh fruit and veg on occassion. So far he likes apple, kale, strawberry, blackberry, banana, raspberry, cara cara (a grapefruit/orange hybrid)basil and cilantro. Yes he can have all of those, i looked it up before i even tried to give him any. He hates carrots and celery.

Stimpy is getting old, he has bad hips and tummy issues, so i have gone from giving him regular cheap dog food to decently priced grain free dog food. Yes my moms dog eats it as well as he has no choice since they eat the same food. I give him grain free wet food as well on occasion. He loves this raw hide alternative called Dream Bones (in all the flavors) and they (the company who makes Dream Bones) also make a treat called Kabobs and he loved them as well. Along with beggin strips and the typical dog teeth cleaning treats. He loves ice cold water, tea and soda (the last 2 he gets vvvveeerrrryyyyy rarely). He has a nice set up kennel he spends most of his time in, lots of bedding and blankets. The dogs get treats when they behave, or when i trim their nails. I trained them both to go to their kennels with their treats to eat them, it was super simple and stimpy took to kennel training quite quickly and very well.

That covers it. Hope you enjoyed my pets.

--me

Some thoughts...

I was sitting here watching PLL on netflix and staring at my tummy thinking about my recent dental appointment. I was looking at what the dentist was typing on the computer and ofc as all doctors will put on my records i am "obese" and i know im big for my height and age. What it made me start to think is why do we use such a word that makes people feel like shit? Its not always the persons fault that they are big. When i was little, i has bladder issues which required surgery to fix, which in turn made my hormones out of balance and i developed early.
Not only did i get bewbs and my monthly friend, i put on weight. Something that i have and always will struggle with and it sucks. I already see myself in an aweful way, and i know how others see me.
You would think, in a world with so many issues as is, instead of making more and causing more issues with each other, we would get rid of all these negative words and just accept the fact that we are all different - and we should love each others differences. I grew up in a world where being big was very very bad. Now as an adult we are loving curves. Not being a little big, just curves. (i had a better way to say it but i cant spell the words i want to use T_T QQ majorly).'
I mean if anyone reads this at all, you have seen my old posts and how down on myself i can be.
I guess i was just wishing there was a better, more peaceful and accepting world to live in.

Late night and tears....

So im terrible at this, i dont ever know what to do, and i usual only end up writing something when im upset or something is on my mind. Its late and i have to work early in the morning. So lets catch up first and then address why im crying.
Fist me and JD are still together and we are engaged. Beautiful ring, and no it wasnt a romantic proposal like he wanted, the jewler from the store threw him under the bus. Needless to say, i could care less how he proposed, im just glad to know he wants to spend his life with me.
Second, we are planning to have a baby, if the world doesnt go to hell because of president trump....
Im working, easy job, decent money. Im ok right now minus the state of the world. it is bearing down on my mind. Maybe i shouldnt have had a monster energy drink so late in the day, and prolly shouldnt have had so much soda.....oh well i suppose. We know my anxiety can be a bitch and it has decided to be a bitch right now.
So as i type this i am listeneing to JulienJenna podcast on youtube, while my old phone plays NCIS on netflix, cause i listen to it to fall asleep. Look how well that is working right now! :(
So to the reason i cant sleep and why im crying. Recently it has been semi declared that Donald Trump has pretty much called World War 3 with Russia.....stuff was sent one way and then trump responded with the same shit basically saying bring it.
Im 23, i have only slept with 1 man (which im so happy about), im not married (yet), and i dont have any kids (hopfully yet) and i may be dead before any of that can happen because of this jackass who has no idea what the hell he is doing ruling a country. Because we are now in a world where sexism and racism is again a HUGE deal, where right before we were slowly working on fixing the bullshit the is human stupidity.
The only thing i can think, is - thank god my dad isnt alive to see this - the things he would have to say. I miss him so much. I wonder what he would think of JD and of Trump and all the shit that is happening. He is prolly sitting somewhere wishing he could fix things. Maybe not? I dont know, you cant know what the dead is doing right?
Im scared and thats all there is to it. I wish JD was here to be with me and hold me and comfort me - but we cant get a decent job to be able to get a place with the shit economy that is America today.
I hope to hell someone kills trump before WW3 can even begin, or some person would strike a deal with russia and be like "here he is take him, we dont want a war, we dont want him or his stupid VP" and keep us from being demolished in a war and killing millions who didnt want this idiot as our leader. We had to choose between 2 evils and neither was a lesser evil so either way we got fucked as a country. We need Berny Sanders, idk why america decided to be asshats and not vote him in.
I can only keep pretending im ok for so long. I can only take comfort in faking that everything is ok for a short time.
I cant talk to anyone in person about this, i cant face someone and let it all out, all i can do is type this because i know no one reads it. No one cares about 1 silly womans feeling or rants or self pitty bullshit on this sad blog.
As usual, this helped calm me a little bit, but it wont fix anything. I know i wont be able to sleep tonight, so lets hope some coffee and peanut-butter will wake me up (protein is energy right?)
I got it out, so i guess ill go read, maybe eat because im hungry.....night

-- me

p.s. my rose gold engagement ring

Been a while....

It been a while since i last blogged, and that is because life happened and i wasnt able to do it, and life is still kinda happening so i dont know how often i will blog.
Im only doing it now because im really depressed and crying and i have no one, literally no one i can talk to, so i have to write it down.
I always try to stay strong and pretend like everything is ok, like im fine. Im really not, but i have gotten good at putting on a good face or covering up when im upset.
The sad truth to it all is, i dont really have any friends. I have people who talk to me to be nice. People who prolly just put up with me because they have to, I honestly have no idea why JD even loves me and wants to be with me. I question it all the time.
My mom puts up with me because i take care of her. My own family doesnt want anything to do with me.
I havent been on my game i usually play like i normally am and as far as i can tell no one has really noticed or cared.
I try to talk to people who are my "friends" on FB but they usually dont answer me, or they take days to do it, and the sad part is you can see when someone is on and when someone has looked at the message you sent them.
I also just realised i may have posted something to my other blog, but i cant remember my email for it lol great.
My head hurts now, and i dont feel like typing.

-Me