Weird title? yes yes it is! and hopefuly i have some whovians who read this! if so they would get the referance, or even someone whose watched Hillywoods Doctor Who parody.
Life....what can i say this time? my fathers mother is in the hospital, shes not doing well at all, and shes not the same bitch she was as when i was a child, shes got dementia (is that how you spell it?) and she didnt even know who i was, she kept calling my father by his brothers name and she couldnt remember if she lived in her trailer or in a home. she has a brain tumor and had a stroke and is going down hill quickly. i walked into that hospital with complete haterid for that woman and walked out not know how to feel. i still cant get over the things she did to her children and to me, but i cant help but feel sorry for her. is this karma? getting back at her for all the aweful things she did? and after all she did to my father he was still upset and hurt and even stepped out of the room to keep from crying because it was just too much....maybe its because she did give him life and now shes gone, shes not the person she was, and she cant even remember half the people she sees or where she is anymore. she couldnt even remember that he sister and mother are both gone. she kept asking questions about them and how they were doing. she kept saying that shed take us out to breakfast in the morning, even though i doubt shell be leaving the hospital any time soon at all, shes been there since tuesday.
is this what happens? when you are a mean person, and karma finaly hits you up, do you get the worst there is? or is this some higher power giving her a chance to go to her grave without feeling horrible about all she had done? is this her chance to be at peace after all is said and done?
karma or higher power?
im sure that will start an arguement, maybe just maybe its both.....maybe karma is the higher power.
who really knows? i sure dont.
--me
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